THE CIRCUMCISION OF THE HEART
Circumcise therefore the foreskin of your heart,
and be no more stiffnecked.
- Deuteronomy 10:16 (KJV)
and be no more stiffnecked.
- Deuteronomy 10:16 (KJV)
1/
Often it comes when
I’m doing something else,
walking to the shops
in the iambics of rhythmic
languor, or picking
my nose waiting for
the washing machine
to finish, the brawling
of sparrows softened
to music by the windowpane,
or the moment you
catch the blades of grass
whispering to each
other, their hearts beating
wildly before they
notice you, maybe the distant
sound of thunder,
where the creative impulse
is in the small
things – limericks rather than Epic,
and Dresden china
shepherds, not Michelangelo.
2/
It starts as a music
half familiar, half alien
inside and outside at
the same time,
and in that chorus of
momentary distraction
is the sound that
explains everything.
Then you hear the
words, not quite in your language,
Delphic babble
requiring a coat of gloss,
even as I
half-heartedly take dictation
and the lines fall
and lie down neatly in furrows
on the page’s chaste snow
coverlet.
3/
Or else it’s a bit
like a snowball rolling down
the piste, gathering snow
as it goes.
“Whereof we cannot
speak,” says Wittgenstein,
“thereof we must
remain silent.”
Bullshit says the poet, bordering on apoplexy
to communicate the
state of their inscape,
That’s why I have all these figures of speech,
the circumlocutions of language aspiring
to a more refined version of the crude
grok that is music. An MRI can show you feeling,
but a Beethoven
symphony reveals what it feels like.
4/
Salting Carthage
earth on Margarita night
it’s hard sticking to
those revolvers
that the bloated
commander of the Luftwaffe mentions
(though were he
wittier, he should have reached
for his Browning, but
Nazis were rarely clever)
when the world hates
your guts,
but praise is the
honeytrap that keeps you
circling the
foothills of Enlightenment
or picking up shells
when the Pacific lies behind you.
If you wear a mask
out where people can see you
they think they know
you, you’re a mate, in their gang
or their worst enemy,
so don’t expect me
to go with the flow…
She won’t be right…
5/
Poetry is like crack:
write enough of it
and it becomes part of you
like yearning or an
elbow.
In a poem is a more efficient expression
than trying to talk to you.
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